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lost? run home.  Criselle Ann. 21. aka Ann/ Crizy/ Kirk/Tish. Registered Nurse. eclectic. ironic.
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10.10.2010
Eventually, I Had To Wake Up
I had been floating in a dream tonight. Everything else was unremarkable and forgettable until I saw his face. Right in the middle of all the blackness, there he was. Just his face. I’d like to think it took my breath away even while I was then asleep. It was so calm and beautiful and his hair was the way I always wanted it. He wore a faint smile that tells me everything will be alright. For a moment there was pure bliss. It felt so unbelievably real and he felt so near. I wanted so much to reach out and feel it. I felt the need to assure myself that he was there to stay, never drifting away. Even so, there was absolute peace in my heart. But then a whiff of emptiness came over me when I realized how I’m slowly forgetting the perfect feeling that seeing his face and being so near to him gives me. That feeling now seems to be becoming increasingly distant and inaccessible. It pains me to realize that these days, the closest I could get to it is through a dream.. Labels: blah, emo-schemo, favorite people, making sense, showbiz lovelife 9.27.2010
It's Foreign On This Side
 I could name dozens of reasons as to why Singapore may be the better country. But nothing can ever beat the fact that the Philippines is HOME.. I miss home, my family, and Thony more than I could express. But I give myself NO REASON to waste this opportunity that I was given. I'm forever grateful that I have a second family with me here who's equally supportive. (Yeah, I know it's really not that far. I mean it's still in Asia. But still, it's overseas. That makes all the difference.) Labels: blah, emo-schemo, family 9.15.2010
how on earth did that happen??
When something is beyond what the human reason could explain, there is ultimately a greater force that has brought such to realization. SI LORD TALAGA ANG MAY KAGAGAWAN NUN. What I've contributed was little when compared to what He did for me. THANK YOU FOR THE LUCKY NUMBER 13. :) God, my Mom, my Dad and my university (Angeles University Foundation - College of Nursing) deserve the recognition more than anyone else. Congratulations as well to my Thony. We got through it all together.:) GOAL OVER-MET..:)  Labels: blah, making sense, school 8.23.2010
Filipinos Under Siege
(POSTED LATE)
I was watching The Taking of Pelham 123 on HBO this afternoon, not knowing that a real live hostage drama had been taking place in Manila. At some time after the movie, I stumbled upon a local news cable channel featuring this lone tourist bus parked in a rather peculiar manner in the middle of what seemed to be a deserted highway. The camera didn’t shift to any other direction for several minutes so I thought that the TV station was merely having some technical difficulties. Later on, I learned that what had been happening inside that bus is what will give the Philippines fifteen minutes of fame and probably years of shame. The event would certainly go down in history as the famous Manila Bus Siege. Last Saturday (August 21), Ninoy Aquino’s death anniversary was commemorated. He was the man who triggered Filipinos to act against an abusive regime and that which then led to the People Power Revolution in 1986. This revolution was the defining event that impressed upon the rest of the world that Filipinos are advocates of peace and diplomacy. This became our people’s unified identity. I grew up upholding this ideal. Despite whatever undesirable news I heard about my country, it was what made me solidly proud of my heritage. However, sitting in front of the TV tonight, I was slapped by the realization that this idea from childhood has sadly already become radically transformed. In fact, I realized that I have already long forgotten about it and now recognize my people in a completely different way. The old identity is now hidden in an obscure location within my consciousness, eclipsed by events such as mass political killings, police brutality, relentless corruption and numerous reports of human rights violation. Indeed, our nation is under siege -- taken hostage by violence, greed and hunger for power. One of the things I am fervently praying for is redemption for the Filipino people. This redemption is the kind that would change how the world and the Filipinos view themselves. Deep down, I still would like to believe that most of my countrymen remain to genuinely value harmony and condemn violence. I still am hoping that the true worth and numerous admirable attributes of our race be recognized. However, until concrete and commendable actions from Filipinos themselves are witnessed, redemption may be a far-fetched dream.  *image by kesdeeLabels: blah, making sense 3.22.2010
Not quite messed up anymore
EVALUATION: GOAL MET AS EVIDENCED BY FOUR YEARS' WORTH OF TRASH OUT OF MY ROOM AND INTO THE TRASH CAN OUTSIDE THE HOUSE. Furthermore, after four years of staying exactly the same way, I thought it was also time for stuff in my room to get rearranged. Upon doing so, I realized the following: 1. that I have a freakishly huge bed and I never should have tried moving it all on my own coz it didn't even budge; 2. that the laptop and booming speakers should've never ever been situated atop the STUDY table. That explains my past unsuccessful attempts at sitting quietly on my study table and ACTUALLY studying there for real (instead of logging on to facebook or watching DVDs); 3. that I have TOO MUCH junk for one person; and 4. that I didn't spend 9 hours straight of cleaning up today for no reason at all. The purpose was so that I could start thinking straight. Well I don't think I've mentioned it yet but for me, a clean room equals a clear head. Yea.:) Speaking of thinking straight, YEP I badly need that one. March is almost over. THE BIG THING COMES THIS JULY.. By the way, graduation day is four days from now but my thoughts about it haven't been completely formulated yet. I need time for it to sink in.. However, the dominant feeling right now is GRATITUDE.. tremendous gratitude to HIM and certain special people. :) Here's a photo from our recent Pinning Ceremony.. courtesy of my friend Jan.  Ciao! I believe I shall be blogging again SOON. No, soon does not mean three months from now..:D Labels: blah, family, favorite people, making sense, school, skool 12.14.2009
who wore it better?
  WHO WORE IT BETTER?:) LOL. Of course the top model on the left did. No doubt about that. (That's me on the right by the way.) Just minutes ago, I was browsing through random laptop files when I stumbled upon her photo which I grabbed from Sir Frederick Policarpio's site several months ago. If I'm not mistaken, it was from Sir Polic's Philippine Fashion Week collection. I was awed at the sight of it and somehow pictured myself then wearing it someday. The piece was FEMININE, CONTEMPORARY, REGAL, PERFECT. And lucky enough, just a week ago, I was privileged to have been given the chance to wear the exact same piece as I got onto the stage for my farewell walk as Ms. University. What a GLAM way to wrap up an amazing year.:) MY NEVER-ENDING THANKS TO EVERYONE WHO BECAME PART OF THE PAST BLESSED YEAR.<3 (I notice I've said thanks a little too many times already.. and I don't think I'd ever get tired of it.:D) Ciao! I'm supposed to be reviewing for exams, not blogging. XD Labels: blah, making sense, ms. Univ., photography, school 12.13.2009
macro
Mood: fulfilled :D
 Cute camera pendant from So Chic. It was just so mandatory for me to grab this as soon as I saw it hanging on the shelf. I can't NOT have this. No freakin' way.<3I've been really busy about lots of things lately. I promise I'll be blogging again seven to eight days from now.. If I don't keep my word I'll die ugly.. Or NOT. LOL.:D P.S. It's already mid-December but our Christmas tree is still packed away in its dusty box. I guess everyone in this house is just too busy. BOO. BTW, here's a photo of Dialogo I took last October. LOOVE it.  Labels: blah, photography 11.28.2009
vintage / glam / rock
11.26.09. criselle. les. nix. raf. gold. fitz. Our shot at being creative. Kept it simple but glam.:D       Labels: favorite people, photography, school, skool 9.07.2009
sometimes, you earn the right to rant
Last Thursday, the day I've been anxiously anticipating for weeks now has finally been over. You've guessed right if you thought of THESIS DEFENSE. The verdict? Passed with some revisions. Coolest thing ever.:D I will not go into details about the things I had to put up with during the whole process of doing the study because it'd be pointless by now. Now that I've finally gotten through it, I'm just glad to be able to say that I truly deserved passing because I know that I worked for what I've earned, as well as some other groupmates who stood by me. The rest of the group have the freedom to evaluate themselves too. I'm not putting myself in the position to judge others because it wouldn't be necessary. They know themselves well and they each know how they've performed throughout this whole thing. You can play apathetic but you can't possibly lie to yourself. So yeah. I believe I'm ranting again. But this is the very first time I've ranted about thesis stuff so give me a break.  Anyway, being just in time for stress release, Thony was again invited by Dialogo to play for them at the SMB Battle of the Bands last Saturday night. Of course, being his official groupie, I was there to watch and cheer for the band. They totally rocked with "Message in a Bottle." :D I had fun at the event except for those times the emcee had to take over the microphone. No host could be grumpier than the guy they had that night. I think he had issues with some of the bands or something. But still. Dude, it's a "happy" event. No need to be all scroogy. I'm really liking this four-day weekend thing. It should be made regular. LOL.:D P.S. Hi to my friend Nico! Thanks for dropping by. You always make me laugh like mad. :) Labels: blah, making sense, photography, school, skool 8.28.2009
how to put yourself in trouble
Today, while BF and I were hanging out, I suddenly blurted out that I was crushing on a guy at school. Two seconds later, judging by his immediate reaction, I realized it wasn't a very good idea. Yeah, 'twas kinda stupid. At least I've been honest! Sure hope we'll just be joking about it tomorrow. I'd be damn lucky if that happens.XD * * * I edited this one a few days ago. It's amateur-ish but whatever, I like what it reminds me of. Photo was taken last summer at my grandma's old house just before the family had it demolished.
I got myself a new tumbler which means I will be drinking even more caffeine than I already am drinking.. I guess this also explains why I'm still up and blogging at 1am. I'm like, SO WIDE AWAKE right now. O_0 Labels: blah, photography, showbiz lovelife 8.21.2009
the product of procrastination
Ok, so yeah. I'm still alive. Surprise. On this not so very special day, I am officially blogging again. I'm needing some kind of inspiration to get me writing just like in the old days.. probably a pink sunset or something like that.  Photo: a summer sunset from our backyard. A LOT has happened since my last blogpost. I don't even know where to start or if I'm even going to start trying to narrate at all. I feel kind of undecided these days. Undecided about I don't even know what. So yeah, this has been a totally random blog post and I think you just threw away 30 seconds or something of your life reading it. P.S. I didn't intend this to sound too sarcastic nor is my mood really that gloomy at all. I promise though that next time I shall sound more cheery.XD Labels: blah, photography 4.06.2009
kicking off summer
03.30.09 with Group 47 at the Anvaya Cove, Bataan.
A summer getaway.. just what our group needed before we officially start off with the thesis proper. It was a day that would remind us that we actually do love each other whenever we already feel like ripping each other's throats out because of the pressure we are surely about to face.     This is not the first of our group's bonding episodes though. We've been finding ourselves out together a lot lately.. mostly procrastinating at Ate Jayzelle's house, at the mall or at some random bar 'til dawn. This group has definitely developed and is now very different from the group I saw on that very first day of the semester. They're not merely classmates to me anymore, they're real friends.:')Unfortunately, this blog has missed out a lot on this sem's most memorable moments. Maybe I'll try to write a recap just before I leave for the summer affiliation. I miss blogging. I miss a lot of things.. AND PEOPLE. Ciao! P.S. Can't wait to hit the beach again tomorrow with my dear girlfriends!:) Labels: blah, favorite people, photography, skool, trip |
