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Criselle Ann. 19. aka Ann/ Crizy/ Kirk/Tish. student. eclectic. ironic. passionate. a little narcissistic. loves the weekend. self-proclaimed artist. dreams big. tall.


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4.06.2009
kicking off summer
03.30.09 with Group 47 at the Anvaya Cove, Bataan.

A summer getaway.. just what our group needed before we officially start off with the thesis proper. It was a day that would remind us that we actually do love each other whenever we already feel like ripping each other's throats out because of the pressure we are surely about to face.

This is not the first of our group's bonding episodes though. We've been finding ourselves out together a lot lately.. mostly procrastinating at Ate Jayzelle's house, at the mall or at some random bar 'til dawn. This group has definitely developed and is now very different from the group I saw on that very first day of the semester. They're not merely classmates to me anymore, they're real friends.:')

Unfortunately, this blog has missed out a lot on this sem's most memorable moments. Maybe I'll try to write a recap just before I leave for the summer affiliation.

I miss blogging. I miss a lot of things.. AND PEOPLE.
Ciao!

P.S. Can't wait to hit the beach again tomorrow with my dear girlfriends!:)

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too emo for a title.

hate that I love you!
it's the last song syndrome.

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3.15.2009
20 ain't so bad!
As of today, oo bente-anyos na ako.

Unfortunately, I'm now officially excluded from the teen age bracket..

Oh well, everyone is to get old someday. So what's the fuss?!

Special thanks to God for making things extra special.:D Looking back, I realize He has given me a lot of good people and things which I didn't even ask for or which I didn't even totally deserve. So yeah..

BTW, congratulations to Siklab-Group47 for passing the thesis proposal! yey. The hard work paid off after all.:)

I shall be back to real blogging again soon.XD

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1.25.2009
to blog or not to blog
I really wanna blog about something. But I can't. I'm not supposed to. It's just not right.

Whatever.

Anyway, whenever I am bothered by something lately, what never fails to make me smile is seeing this baby's photos. I came across this cute little thing during our group's duty at the community of Ninoy Aquino. Upon seeing him that day, I thought he was sick or something because he had that sad and pleading look on his face. But then it turned out he was just really drowsy coz about 30 seconds later he fell asleep! :D



I have this evil plan of going back there and stealing him from his parents. But then that's evil. So nevermind.XD

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1.01.2009
the year that was


2008 was really kind, to me at least.
I hope 2009 does the same for the rest of the world.


HAPPY NEW YEAR EARTH!:]
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kahriz and ynna.
***
Btw, I spent the holidays with my first ever set of girlfriends (girlfriends since birth) :
my sister Tin and favorite cousins Kahriz and Ynna.
Too bad it'll be two more years 'til we see each other again.

***

..also had some quality family time during the break. Hope you did too! XD

♥♥

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12.20.2008
grace under pressure
photos of the event are posted at annscreams.multiply.com

How do you start writing about a really really long story which for you is somehow too big for words? Err. That's my problem right now. Let me just put it this way..

Soo.. AUF's Mr. and Ms. University 2008 is finally over.
And I won. LOL. There. I said it.

I don't even know how to tell the tale or where to start or which details I should disclose. The whole experience is just surreal. I mean, it's not like I joined Ms. Universe, Ms. Earth or Bb. Pilipinas, but this event is still "something", at least for me and the rest of my university.

"All I want is perfection, nothing else" If I'm not mistaken, our director screamed that at us, the 24 candidates, during our first real rehearsal for the coronation night.

Last December 6, I was NOT exactly the embodiment of perfection. I even had my fair share of bloopers on stage, having exited the wrong way during the sportswear competition (LOL!!haha:D). Nevertheless, I came out there as, well, ME. Truth is, the competition was not what was mainly in my mind. Instead, I thought about enjoying every moment of it because somehow, even if I don't admit it a lot, the whole thing is a dream which actually came true. Oh and yes, I also focused on not tripping over. haha.


The venue was perfect. Much like a scene straight out of a fairytale book where royalties vied for one crown. However, what was happening backstage was a complete opposite. Chaos is the word. Good thing my mom never left me. What could I have done without her?!

Anyway, for the record, I got the title Ms. University along with JD Hizon as Mr. University. We were both candidates #11. I guess 11 was a lucky number that night.:) I was awarded Ms. Photogenic and for some surprising and unknown reason, I was also Best in Sportswear.


I know it's too early for thank you's but the support I received from the following people is just overwhelming: my wonderful parents (best parents on earth!!), my sister Christine, the rest of my family, Thony, Red, Biggies, Rochelle (wish I could do it the way she did it), all my closest friends, and the College of Nursing. Indeed, I am so blessed.

Other people may think that pageants and beauty queens are overrated. I say, this experience has helped me become more real and actually believe in myself, having been the girl who used to never really have enough confidence. I also gained new friends through my fellow candidates.The story didn't end during the coronation night though, it actually was just the beginning. Good luck to me for the next 12 months! Everything about this is totally new to me.xD


BTW, barely two weeks after all that, I had to fulfill one of my first responsibilities (wow I actually have responsibilities now. lol.) which is to compete for another pageant, the Mutya ng PRISAA (Private Schools Athletic Association) Regionals at Bulacan. I spent December 15-17 being absent in school (which saddens the nerd in me because I missed a lot) and mostly rehearsing or hanging out at the hotel room, living on burgers and mineral water. I wasn't exactly a fan of the adobong manok back there. I guess I just got used to the way Kapampangans do it.XD

Anyway, since God somehow likes me a lot (hehe kapal) I got the title Mutya ng PRISAA for Region III along with two other special awards, Ms. Photogenic and Best in Filipiniana. (Medyo nawweirdohan na ako sa mga pangyayari ah. hehe.). I'll be in the national competition in Bicol next year so cross your fingers for me..:)

Thanks to the special people who became part of those three days --- my co-candidates, Sir Poklong, Sir Boron, Ate Ardi, Franchette, Sir Polic, Sir Dumboo, Sir Daenos, Sir Adrian and the kind people from CCA.

I'm supposed to thank God in here too but I'm sure He knows that already. I asked Him a little but He gave me a lot.XD

I realize it's almost Christmas already, my favorite time of the year! and Yay I'm actually blogging again..OMG it's been TWO MONTHS since my last blog post. What a shame. I missed this place..XD

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10.20.2008
this is but random.
"I was aware of the time slipping away so quickly, like the black road beneath us, and I was hideously afraid that I would never have another chance to be with him like this again — openly, the walls between us gone for once. His words hinted at an end, and I recoiled from the idea. I couldn’t waste one minute I had with him."

----Bella Swan, Twilight


Ok so I'm a fanatic. Leave me be.

************

I miss him.
Wonder if he does miss me too.?! Leche.

On a lighter note, I spent the whole day shopping with my sister. We both got new piercings. Haha. Trip lang. Had some coffee at Starbucks too. Then headed home and gulped down some alcohol.. just because we can't come up with anything else to do.

BTW, had the pictorial last friday. The people were awesome.. that's from the photographers and their SLRs which made me drool, the director of photography, make-up artist, designer, stage parents and stage friends.:) Special thanks to Sir Poklong.:D

And oh Nursing week was great too. Too bad I wasn't able to savor it coz I was busy with something else. Fck. I missed the games! Yeah I know it's loser-ish. I made it a point to be there at the acoustic sessions though.. Thony played guitar hero again. CON band rocked. Detailed post later, probably.


Need some sleep right now. Nyt earth. Sleep well.XD

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10.12.2008
another one down. three more to go.
1st sem is over. surprise. surprise. This has got to be the shortest sem ever.
Well, it feels that way.
I must say, nabitin ako.

Anyway, like any other normal student I've also been longing for sembreak to come.
But now that it's finally here, somehow it doesn't feel right at all.
I've only spent one day of vacation at home and now I'm bored out of my mind.
Feeling ko wala akong silbi. Hehe.
I guess I've just been used to the toxic lifestyle.

I'll miss III-4 (yung mga ka-close ko lang ehehe).
I'll miss group 14.
I'll miss Xitt group.
I'll miss my instructors especially Sir _____. Haha. (**EDIT: I had to delete that coz Thony went mad when he read it. hehe. peace.)

BTW, belated congratulations to the Nightingale band (our college's official band) for winning "best common piece" at the inter-college battle of the bands. Of course I was the proud groupie who cheered to death for the guitarist.. who, well, happens to be Thony.

P.S. Oh and about that previous post.. Yes, for some obscure reason and weird turn of events, I did end up getting into that Ms. Univ. pageant. Sshhh.. don't ask why or how. Anyhoo, finals night is on December. Well, I'm new at this thing so wish me luck! Hope I don't trip over or say something funny out loud.XD

I can't believe it's October already. I've kind of been losing track of time lately. Ciao!

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9.28.2008
stand really straight and glue a smile

..and after that it's back again to my normal self.
whole story later.
i've got a huge case
study to finish.
bummer.
ciao.:D

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9.01.2008
let's leave everything at the boardwalk
Aug.30 'til 31.08.
(If you don't want the detailed account, just stare at the photos.)

It was around 8:30 pm, a Saturday night. Apparently, I was on a joyride with my resurrected-from-third-year-high-school friends --- Kath, Win, Tonyang (real name: Toni. Tonyang na lang para hindi ma-confuse with Thony my boyfriend) and Mendi. We were supposed to be headed for a short drive to Envy Bar when Win decided that he wanted four hot-looking headturners with him instead of four underdressed (but nevertheless still gorgeous!) girls... and so we started thinking of some other place to crash.. someplace less demanding of fashion sense.

Then out of the blue, someone screamed 'SUBIC tayo!' (I think it was Kath in her overly excited mood), and since we all had equally crazy and giddy minds, minutes later we were cooking up our evil oh-so-sudden plan to actually drive miles away from home and hit the beach in the middle of the night. Win has never driven that far and some of us were unprepared with what alibis to tell our parents and boyfriends.. but it had to be pushed through no matter what.. masyado na naming inexcite mga sarili namin para ipostpone pa.!

We left the city at 11:30 p.m. after much much much waiting (muntik na nga namin buuin mga sili na pinapatuyo sa harap ng dorm ni Jonabel) for some other guy and girl friends of Tonyang's who were also coming with us. Of course we used the very functional SCTEX to get there. It was really dark, chilly and scary along the way, what with all the fog and the absence of postlights..! But it's actually what made the roadtrip even more exciting. Hehe. Our feet touched Subic at around 12:30 a.m. (screw the promised 30 minutes from Clark to Subic!).

We headed to the boardwalk, sat barefooted on the sand, had Bubble Gum lambanog mixed with Sprite (loved!!), some Tequila, Sisig (not as good as the sisig back here at home), fish fillet, fries, a game of truth or dare (which didn't last long since no one did really cooperate much. haha.), camwhoring, and lots and lots of laughs.

The beach, with its several static sailboats, was so peaceful it was almost like it was asleep or something. Good thing it didn't suddenly get agitated when some guys I know peed on it! Ick! Haha. Anyway even if it was peed on, since the the sea is vast anyhow, Kath, Mendi and I still had the guts to sink our feet on it and play around.. The water felt great on my feet.. I missed Subic so much I was just so glad to feel its waters again. Aww. The sea was in no way blue that night nor was it the same picturesque view I took pictures of the last time I was there (kasi naman gabi kaya madilim, puro black) but it didn't matter. I was just so glad to be with people I'm totally comfortable with.

Sad to say, the sun had to rise and we had to leave the boardwalk and go home some time. FCA's, Case Studies and exams were waiting for us back home. Everyone was a little tipsy and sleepy in the end but we all managed to get home with grins on our faces. Yay we made it! Thank God na chena lang ang narcolepsy ni Win at abnormally obedient xa sa mga traffic rules. Haha.:D Thank God Mendi was bringing her ever trustworthy digicam. Too bad silent lang si Kath about her birthday at hindi xa naglibre ni tapsilog man lang.. hehe walangya. Cheers to Bap2 (aka John lloyd) and his friends. hehe.

We watched the sky slowly change from jet black to orange to pink to blue as we drove by a grand view of the ever-so-green mountains. In some unexplainable sense, it gave me peace and bliss while just sitting there. To say that the morning was beautiful is an understatement.. beyond words probably.
I loved everything about it.

Too bad the trip going back home took only about half an hour. Ok, so SCTEX's 30-minute Subic to Clark promise is true then after all.:D

What a great way to end August.


******
Going back to reality...

Thony was mad at me for sneaking away. He was so angry that we didn't even get to have our usual Sunday date yesterday. I'm trying to make it up to him. But I'm glad, no matter how hard he tried to stay mad, he still can't help but have his usual involuntary smile when he saw me this morning... that's how much he loves me! I should be damn flattered..

But he says he's "still mad" at me though. Err.

P.S.
Death Cab for Cutie's "I Will Follow You Into The Dark" makes me cry.. XD. ow emo.

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8.10.2008
something sinister this way comes
This photo I took of a cemetery months ago gave me goosebumps the first time I saw it. Creepy. I guess a lot could happen when you're using expired film (no edits here of course!). I know it's probably just light leaks but it still is freaky.!

It reminds me of how I imagined the setting on one of my favorite book series. Well, speaking of that particular book series.. I mentioned in my previous post something about "my latest obsession".. ok so here it is..

Drumroll please....

It's the Twilight series..! I don't expect you to be surprised, it's gone really popular these days.. what with the movie adaptation coming and all.. not to mention the overly hot lead actor chosen to play Edward Cullen --- Robert Pattinson (please remind me to stop drooling).

My sister and I bought the first book, Twilight, months ago. But it was only a week ago that I had the time to start reading it. I was so absorbed that I put it down only to eat, shower and sleep for 3 hours. Upon finishing it a day and a half later, I knew I just fell in love again. To whom, I'm not really sure. The story is your typical teenage love story, but with an edge that is... mainly because the girl (Bella) is an ordinary seventeen-year-old mortal who fell in love with a guy (Edward) who is not only a 90-year-old (if I'm not mistaken) vampire but also is hot, perfect and immortal.(!!)

The story is painfully heart-wrenching and nostalgically inspiring so I highly recommend it to all bookworms and hopeless romantics out there..:)

I've got ebooks of New Moon and Eclipse but I feel bad about stealing from Stephenie Meyer (who by the way is probably filthy rich already) and I'm not very fond of reading off the pc for hours at a time so I'm eventually going to get original copies of them for myself anyway. Maybe tonight I'll check out other bookstores in town *evil grin*.

I have to get my hands on those two asap or I'll end up skipping them and going straight to Breaking Dawn which I already have a copy of. Ugh the temptation.!

************

This never gets old. I miss him. I miss us.


Oh no we didn't break up or anything close to that. We just don't see each other too often anymore. Yeah you guessed right, it's because of school business again.! Sunday is our day though. We're going to Church then have coffee in a while. So buh-bye! XD

I notice I've been using the word 'sinister' a lot lately.

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[EDIT] Soo I just got back from that date with him. I'm actually grinning right now.:) Plus I also was able to grab a copy of Eclipse already. Too bad they didn't have a copy of New Moon which isn't hard-bound (hard-bounds are more expensive, making me a little too guilty too buy one). Three down, one more to go!

BTW, I also bought my fisheye camera a lace. I feel I owe it some kind of compensation or apology after irresponsibly losing its lens cap months ago. XD

Shock of the day: I just spotted my sister's stolen phone FOR SALE at the mall today!

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8.09.2008
you know, they weren't always cute.
Contrary to what it may seem like, no, this blog has not been abandoned. Ok so i'm back. What the hell, I don't even know where and how to start my babbling.
So what have I been up to anyway? Well for one, I've been delivering babies. Yep. Real live human babies. Honestly, never have I thought that one day I'd be saying something like that.. mainly because I've never really pictured myself taking this line of career back then. But that's another story. Right now I wanna talk about the human babies...

So it's true. Their heads really do get molded.. bent into ovoid shapes as they make their way out of their mother's you-know-what. For one second there, I pitied that very 1st baby coz I thought she had some kind of cranial abnormality because the top of her head was severely malformed. But realizing Anatomy and Physiology, I quickly remembered that "molding" was nothing but a normal mechanism which every baby undergoes to get out more easily. Their heads assume normal shapes later on. Yeah stupid me.

And also, I've been told on lectures that they shall look "blue" (or cyanotic) for the first few minutes of their lives in the outside world. And indeed they are.. literally blue that is. They don't look human at all.. they're rather more like how I imagined the mandrakes in the Harry Potter books. Or maybe like small aliens from some kind of obscure planet where people are blue. Not earthlings at all.

But then you bathe them, suction them, keep them warm and wrap them into small delicate bundles under the drop light and within 5 minutes they transform into fragile wonderful creatures. Not blue, but with the color of life, almost pinkish. Indeed, gifts from God Himself. Then a proud smile creeps across your face for being the one to help such a beautiful creation be brought to earthly life.

The mother on labor has another story though. She has the face of pain and sacrifice all throughout the process. When I was decked for the very first time, the blood drained from my face when the attending physician performed the episiotomy. He injected anesthesia and cut her perineal area so grossly like it was some kind of meat, like it was something he does each day. But then I had to get over that real fast and had to avoid fainting because there was some baby-catching to be done. Later, I delivered the placenta. The placenta! I delivered it! Then even later on I assisted with stitching her up. Surreal. What with all the blood all over the place. I definitely appreciate mothers more now.

My experience in the Delivery Room rotation was a memorable one. I feel so comfortable now with "Katorse", my RLE group (BSN III-4 grp. 14). We laugh most of the time, especially on those days when D.R. would be a drag and no one would give birth at all.


Anyway, on to other matters.. There are actually more things I would like to put in here such as my sister's 18th birthday party last July (yeah I know it's August already. very late post.), my reunion with my ex-bestfriends, and my latest obsession. But maybe I'll talk about those later on. Long stories.

Ciao.! Be back soon. At least I hope so.

photos courtesy of group 14 members.

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